I really do know that sometimes I can be a real bitch to people. I start treating them differently and acting weird around them, and not answering all text messages with replies that i actually thought about, but its not that I hate you. I don’t really know why I do that, but its not only you that I do it too. And I can’t help it and I don’t mean it. Give me some time maybe? I really don’t know. Just know that I don’t hate you. And I do miss you. I just need a break from people, I guess. Idk or I’m just being a real bitch. 

I complain that I’m lonely and have little friends but I make no move to improve the friendships that I already have. Or maybe its just the people I actually really want to be closer to don’t make any move to try to be close to me. I guess, I really just need a break from everyone at one point. Because I don’t know what I want anymore. I feel like I’m falling apart sometimes, and that everyone I know and love is just watching me and not doing crap. And the people that do try, I ignore. Yeah, I guess i’m just being a bitch. I’ma try to fall asleep now. I don’t know what to make of what I just wrote. And if you actually read all this, idk why the fuck you really would, but thanks I guess. idk. If you even actually made sense of this. Nightynite~