I really do know that sometimes I can be a real bitch to people. I start treating them differently and acting weird around them, and not answering all text messages with replies that i actually thought about, but its not that I hate you. I don’t really know why I do that, but its not only you that I do it too. And I can’t help it and I don’t mean it. Give me some time maybe? I really don’t know. Just know that I don’t hate you. And I do miss you. I just need a break from people, I guess. Idk or I’m just being a real bitch.
I complain that I’m lonely and have little friends but I make no move to improve the friendships that I already have. Or maybe its just the people I actually really want to be closer to don’t make any move to try to be close to me. I guess, I really just need a break from everyone at one point. Because I don’t know what I want anymore. I feel like I’m falling apart sometimes, and that everyone I know and love is just watching me and not doing crap. And the people that do try, I ignore. Yeah, I guess i’m just being a bitch. I’ma try to fall asleep now. I don’t know what to make of what I just wrote. And if you actually read all this, idk why the fuck you really would, but thanks I guess. idk. If you even actually made sense of this. Nightynite~
my prom is on the same day as the hunger games comes out in movies. fuck. and i doubt my mom would let me see the premiere. :/
Something just keeps fucking up my weekends. Fuck off already. You didn’t think I might already have plans?
I just miss you and want you to be happy. I don’t think I can be happy unless you are too.
For real, I think this valentines day is going to be the worst for me. Finally, I have someone for valentines day. And now I have to go through that day without him, looking at all the happy couples. But it just sucks, knowing that hes going to be really upset tomorrow and the next day. And probably days and weeks and months after that. But there’s nothing I can do except let time heal wounds. I’ll wait. I’ll definitely wait. Because the only thing I want is for him to be happy. Its just something he deserves. I’ll be by his side, no matter what.
Yup. Forever alone on valentines day. He’s not going to school that day. Fuck this fucking sucks :c
Why do I feel like this valentines day might be depressing .-. I seriously hope not :/
Why do I get so irritated when I try to understand something that is difficult? I always end up lashing out at people .-.
Don’t mind me, irritated as fuck. Tired and irritable. Feeling stupid. Just go away everyone. Stop texting me, theres too many people at once texting and I cant take it. If I don’t reply for awhile, too bad. I’m fucking trying to think. I want to do this but I can’t because I’m fucking retarded. Just fuck off okay? Talk to me later when my brain isn’t on overload.
